During this time of grief keep in mind a loving provision that is promised by Jehovah God at Revelation 21:4 “ And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” There will be a time in the near future where we will no longer have to deal with such loss.
I am sorry to read of your loss. Losing a loved is a difficult experience to go through, but the Bible at Acts 24:15 which says: And I have hope toward God, which hope these men also look forward to, that there is going to be a resurrection of both the righteous and the unrighteous. By living a life guided by godly principles, there is the hope of seeing your loved one again on a Paradise earth.